Sunday, September 25, 2005
Perspective.
[Middle English,
science of optics (influenced by French
perspective,
perspective), from Medieval Latin
perspect
va (ars), feminine of
perspectvus,
optical, from
perspectus, past participle of
perspicere,
to inspect :
per-,
per- +
specere,
to look; see
spek- in Indo-European Roots.]
thats my catch word of the month. everything's all about perspective. my perspective, your perspective, perspective of the times, perspective of others. there are many kinds of perspective... depending on YOUR perspective. which is the one that really counts?
perspective is when everything around you suddenly keeps still, and for that one moment; a moment in which a needle could fall into a haystack and still be found, it hits you like a oncoming bullet train travelling at the speed of sound *boom!*. and by the time the pieces crash to the floor, everything's fixed, everything's resolved. humpty dumpty got put back together again by all the kings horses and all the kings men.
its that moment of truth of realisation that everything becomes crystal clear, and your path is clear, everything falls into place. you know what you've done before, you know what you have to do, and you know whats going to happen next. its all about clarity, and your'e not going to have to cry over spilt milk, because there won't be any.
suddenly the world, seems such a perfect place... suddenly the moon is such a perfect face... suddenly my life doesnt seem such a waste...the truth is. what makes life worth living isnt what you do, isnt what happens to you, isnt all the success you achieve, all the pride you get, isnt the eternal hope that everything will turn out alright. its knowing that somebody placed us all here, in this mixing bowl of life, churning us together, stirring us as His creation. when you accept the fact that there must be a reason, it no longer becomes important what that reason is. its believing that since there IS a reason, there is a reason for me to live. and to live to the fullest. to be a bright shining light on this world. just... to live. thats perspective. when you learn to see things through the eyes of not yourself, but through the eyes of truth. when the reflection you see in the mirror tells you not the story you wish to see, but the story that is.
thats living.
or so it seems, at 7:56 PM
Monday, September 19, 2005
guess everyone's wondering what i mean... 'new josh? whassat' and haha im not really too sure myself.. but will get to it in due time. just been reaally lazy now.. havent even been like sharing my thailand stories and pictures, haven't been catching up, havent been blogging (i think its been ages since i seriously sat down and gave a meaningful thoughtful post). oh well.. in due time! lots of re-evaluating to be done. for now, im just glad to be back in singapore. and even though its only just been a week... i realise there's much that i have to be doing.
on a side note... army has once again returned to -extremely boring mode-. at least time passes quickly when your'e working your'e ass off.. but it kinda makes it seem even more like a complete waste of time, not really doing anything meaningful at all. at best im learning more about myself.. learning just how different u can be when placed in different situations.
and then i realised im still a kid. and that changed my whole world. time to discover who i am =)
meanwhile... THE OC IS BACK! havent watched it yet though... but i cant wait *grin* been finding ways to entertain myself at home.. watching loads of anime and shows heh. need to get out more though... why is everyone so busy! i never once imagined that uni students would be too busy to go out... somehow im dreading uni more and more. oh well. will have to wait and see for myself i guess.
ohhhh yah. quidam is a MUST see. for those of you who've never seen cirque du soleil before.. its well worth the 100+ tickets cost. and those of you who've seen like saltimbanco/alegria, you know what you'll be missing if you dont see it. in short.. catch it =)
or so it seems, at 8:41 PM
new layout... new me. =)
or so it seems, at 1:36 PM
Saturday, September 17, 2005
unforgivable sinner. thats what i am. and yet, He still forgives me. how great is my Lord.
*sigh* been living out a life that has been far from pleasing in His eyes.. something that i want so desperately to do, and yet find myself even struggle to live a life that even comes close to anything pleasing. i guess its all kinda messed up, but i have still have time to make things right. and all that begins now. why can't i be the person that i want to be? why do i give in to temptation, why do i sin so freely? because i've been trying to do everything myself, forgetting that He is guiding me, that He is there to keep me steadfast when i falter.
and its time to change. For the last time. for there's no more reverting back, there's only forward now. with Him leading me with Him supporting me.
and i pray that i will be humble enough to let Him lead me away from the sin that i am consumed in.
or so it seems, at 4:36 PM
Monday, September 12, 2005
im back! well actually been back for a day now... heh. oh well. =p
or so it seems, at 3:54 AM
